It’s taken time to adjust to the changes that were brought about by my inner journey. Before, my mind was constantly on the go: thinking, analysing, judging, wanting to prove something, wanting to know; never satisfied until I had an answer.
I lacked trust; I didn’t believe in anything that wasn’t concrete; if I couldn’t see it and touch it, I didn’t trust it. I didn’t trust love. I built up a façade to hide behind, to protect against the pain of rejection. With the façade firmly in place, I felt in control; I felt safe, but I wasn’t free in the way I wanted to be.
Now, the façade is gone, shattered into a million pieces that no longer have any meaning. My mind is calm; it’s peaceful inside my head. I live in the moment, at the edge of life, following my deepest impulse, allowing events to unfold. I don’t need to hide anymore, don’t need to be in control. I’m free.
What does freedom mean to you?
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